cue angsty teen post.

but in all honesty, I wish I had friends. somewhere I could go when I don’t want to go home. or just someone who would come here with me at night because it’s quiet and we could just talk about our lives. it’s not the same over the phone, I need actual human contact that isn’t my roommates or coworkers. the one friend I had here got a new boyfriend and spends all her off time with him and I don’t blame her, she’s falling hard and I’ve done the exact same.
but that’s the thing- I can’t always be with my boyfriend. we have separate responsibilities, I don’t even want him to have to come every time I’m lost and lonely. It wears us both out.
this really isn’t news, i’ve been saying it since I got here. but as I lay on the grass here at this park near my house, these are the thoughts that come during this beautiful silence.

if only I could release all my burdens and just enjoy the clear sky and the cold air.